For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
You may read what I'm about to say, and laugh. And that's okay. Because this is how I feel, regardless of how it sounds.
I'm 22... exactly a month away from being 23 years old. I haven't lived a "long" life, compared to some people. But I feel old. Ancient, actually.
The year 2010 has been a long, hard year for me (and Clif!). The first part of the year was spent in a daze of sorts. We both felt completely numb to everything around us. And then, as the year went on...the numbness started to wear, and the real pain began. That's where we're at now. Constant pain...constant grief.
I'm afraid that the year 2011 will be much the same. It may not be as intense as 2010... but I expect the dull ache to remain.
But I also have hope for this coming year. For our future. I believe that God has a plan for us... I can taste it! I know that He does not want to Harm us. He wants us to be happy. I truly believe that God will answer our hearts desire in 2011.
I ask that if you are reading these words, that you will say a prayer for us in this coming year. That God may give us our hearts desire, a second (and possible third?) blessing. A child.
I hope that each of you have a wonderful New Years Eve. Be safe - there are a lot of crazies out there...especially late at night.
As for Clif & me...we are headed to his aunts house to spend the evening. It'll be a night full of friends,family, food and fun. :) Good, clean...non alcoholic fun!! I really am looking forward to it. God bless you all... and may God bless you in 2011.