excitment?

I am SO very excited! I just finished ordering my "I am the Face" hoodie from zazzle.com. :) CANNOT wait for it to get here. I even paid extra shipping so I could get it before the SHARE Walk To Remember on October 23rd.

I love the fact that they made it possible to customize the hoodie :) I was able to add Lilly's name on the back... which makes it so much more personal!

Speaking of the SHARE walk. I'm pretty excited about it too. I'm not sure how many people will be there - I'm sure it won't be many. I mean, after all... it's for infant loss. Most people stray away from the subject.

I know that I have several people that will be walking with Clif and me. The list of people include, both of my parents, my niece, my friend Kristy, and possibly my friends Aleisha & Joe.

I wish I had heard about it sooner - I would have asked people in my church to walk with me. :) Oh well, I'm thankful for those who have said they'll walk with me.

I would say that I'm looking forward to the walk, but that doesn't sound right. I'm looking forward to honoring my baby girl... I am not looking forward to seeing so many people with so much pain in their hearts. A pain that I know oh so well.

If you live in our area, and are interested in walking with us in the SHARE Walk To Remember, please call 266-6000 to register. Registration is free. When you call, just let them know that you're calling to register for the SHARE walk on October 23rd at 10am. They'll send you a confirmation letter in the mail :)

 
 

By the way - if you want to order something from the faces of loss page on Zazzle.com, if you order today you can get 14% off your entire order by using the promo code: 1492COLUMBUS

I ordered my hoodie, customized, and special shipping for $40.09!

spreading the word, and excited about it.

I'm so excited.

The other day, I was thinking about "Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope", and how I could possibly help promote the web site.

Since the launch of "Faces" - I have been so encouraged. Reading all the stories of mothers like myself - woman who have gone through unimaginable loss. And yet, even though these words have been an encouragement to me...they break my heart at the same time. It breaks my heart that all these women have experienced great loss, such as myself...and my husband.

So anyways... I posted the link to faces on a couple of news sites around my area. And then yesterday it dawned on me...why not email our local Christian radio station to see if they can help get the word out. So I went on their website (www.spiritfm.com) and found contact information, and emailed them.

I told them our story - about losing Lilly. And then how after she died, I found a wonderful community of women. And then how the "Faces" website was launched. :) I asked them if there was anyway that they could advertise the website - and she said that she would send it to their promotions department and see if there is anything they can do.

I can't tell you how excited I was to at least get that far...excited about spreading the word about Miscarriage, Stillbirth & Infant Loss.

the bottom line...

Even though the OPK said that I ovulated. I didn't.

Which means the bottom line is... I'm not pregnant.

Another wasted pregnancy test, a few more wasted dollars... and another month of results that I don't want.

I've been really busy. Really. And  that's why I say that I haven't been writing. Which I truly believe that it's almost the whole truth. Almost.

I guess another reason I haven't been writing is - I am bummed. I mean, here I am... 22 years old. Happily married. We both have good jobs. We have a house. We have two cars. We've got two extra rooms in our house. Yet it's just us...we are a family of three, but only two remain. (Here on earth anyways).

And ya know, since I haven't been posting the last several days... I haven't really had to think about things. It's easier to ignore them if I'm not constantly talking about them. Hmm. Not really sure if that's better or worse for me.

Oh well.

I started taking Provera (round 5) today. Wow. This is our fifth month of really trying to conceive again. At least, trying with medical help.

I'll wait for my cycle to start - and then I plan to use Evening Primrose Oil & Natural Progesterone Cream. Anyone heard of the brand Kal? It was suggested by a lady in my church. I went to Natures Outlet to look for it, and they didn't have it in stock. And there are like a dozen different types.

*sigh*

Well that's just a little update of what's going on with me. Another day, another heartbreak... another day of looking forward.

Lilly's Story on Faces Of Loss...

                     Check out Lilly's Story at Faces of Loss,Faces of Hope!