Loss...

Almost four months. I can't believe it. I can't wrap my mind around it. It's been almost four months since we lost our little girl. I accept it, but I still don't like it. And still, there's absolutely nothing I can do about it. It's been almost four months since I heard the words that turned my life upside down.....NO HEARTBEAT.
Yesterday, friends of ours heard those same words. No heartbeat. Though, she was still in her first trimester, but it's still heartbreaking. I know exactly what she's going through and then some. And still, I'm not sure of what to say. She is in surgery as I type, and I am heartbroken for her and her husband.
When we received the news last night, I didn't know what to say. Didn't know what to do. I didn't expect for it to feel like it did. And please know that I am not making this about me, or Clif. But hearing of their heartache brought memories (still fresh) flooding back. It hit Clif hard. I mean, real hard. He was so devastated for their loss. To know exactly what someone is going through... I think it's worse than NOT knowing how it feels.
I'm at a loss as to what to do for her. What to say. I'm headed to Hallmark to get them a card, and a Willow Tree Remembrance Angel...but that's not near enough.
I know that some people would brush this off, she was early on...it's not that big of a deal. But that was HER baby, her baby that she'll never meet...never hold...never. I mean, at least I held my daughter. I'm not sure what is worse.
Needless to say, I'm walking around with a VERY VERY VERY heavy heart.
I know that this is a horrible situation, and with Lillian's death still fresh on my heart it's going to be hard to have the words to say to our friends. BUT, I am praying that God may use Clif and me in a very mighty way. That He may use us to help our friends during their grief process...