Monday, July 12, 2010

celebration & heartache....

This coming up weekend Clif and I are attending our goddaughters first birthday party. I love this little girl SO much, and can't wait to celebrate her special day.
But I've come to the realization that it's going to be a tough day. Bittersweet. I'm so happy for our friends, that they have a healthy and happy baby girl. But it's so hard knowing that in just four short months we would have been planning a special party of our own.
Now all we have to look forward to (if that's what you want to call it) is getting out of town for a week in November.
I'm torn as to what I should do. I don't want the day to pass like it's nothing... but I don't know what to do to honor her on her birthday.
*sigh* I never expected to have to worry about these things. Ever. I expected to be happy. To be dealing with the every day "mommy" things.


Anonymous said...

I don't really see a solution unless you send her a gift or take her out on her own another time... there's pretty much nothing that won't make it kind of sad (or worse..) being there with all the children. :\ At least in my experience. Even if things go pretty well, there will always be sadness.

That corgi :) said...

plant a tree or something? see if you can sponsor a child through World Vision that might have had the same birthday as little Lillian? (provided you could afford to do a monthly commitment). Give a gift to a crisis pregnancy intervention clinic in her name as a memorial?

just some random thoughts; I know you will figure out the right way to honor your precious little girl


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