Wednesday, May 19, 2010

~ His Promises Remain ~

It's hard to untangle all the thoughts in my head. There are hundreds of them bouncing around in there.

I wanted to talk about my post that I made earlier, you can view it by clicking

I bought Tenth Avenue North's CD about a month ago. I have had it in the CD player a few times, but it wasn't until the last week or so that I really began listening to the CD. Really listening. These guys deliver so many great messages with their songs.

"Hold My Heart" has very special meaning to me.

I find myself asking, "how long, God"? I am human, and I am impatient.
I am trying to work on that. I have said a million times before, and I will say again...

God has plans for me and my family!!!

I believe that.

God does notice me, and He knows that I am hurting. His plans are to prosper me, and not to harm me.

The verse that really hits home with me is:

"...I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away, before I say goodbye
But if there is no other way, I am done asking why"
I am afraid, but I know that He holds my future. So much HAS slipped away, but I can honestly say that I have stopped asking WHY. This is God's will for my life, for mine and Clif's lives...and I accept it.
"...One life is all I am, right now I can barely stand
If you're everything you say you are
Would you come close and hold my heart?"
He is everything that he says He is. And He continues to hold my heart closely. :) I wouldn't be where I am in my grieving process without Him.
No, I'm not over it. I'm not over her. But I never will be. But I am learning to live with my pain. :)
God loves me, my husband, and my Lilly Bean. And He holds my heart...
"...So many questions without answers
Your promises remain
I can't see, but I'll take my chances
To hear You call my name"


That corgi :) said...

as you said, your little Lilly Bean will always be a part of your life, you won't ever forget her and you will always be thinking of her no matter if you have other children born to you and Clif

that was a very moving song with a powerful message; I thought of the psalms as I read the lyrics. It reminded me of David and how he waited to be king. He probably wondered how long too. Yet he knew the Lord's timing was what mattered.

God knows your heart.......and you are right....he is walking right along beside you while you are grieving


Anonymous said...

I love you, HE loves you, Clif loves you and I KNOW your Lilly loves you too! Always remember that and you'll get through. We're all here for you sweetheart! :)

Trennia said...

I hear ya, (((HUGS)))

elena said...

Amazing post! God does love you and your beautiful family!

love and prayers

Holly said...

Their CD is a really good one! I listen to it all the time.

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