Thursday, May 13, 2010

182 days later....

It's been six months, and I am at a loss for words. Six months since I said goodbye to my precious baby girl...
I said goodbye to her before I got to say hello. That's really hard for me to wrap my mind around. Hard to accept, but I do.
And even more than that, I am heartbroken for Clif. He didn't get to experience the things that I did for almost ten months. :( I got to be nauseous for the first 10 weeks, I got to feel the first flutters at the catfish ponds (haha...yes, Clif says that she moved because she was excited about fishing). I felt the first kick, she woke ME up...there are so many things that I shared with Lilly that Clif will never know anything about. And that kills me.
I miss her more than anything in the world. I love her more than life itself. She will always be a part of me.
And six months later, here I am... my heart aching just as much as ever.
I miss you Lillian Joy...and I love you with all my heart.

7 comments:

croleyc69 said...

Wish I could jump through the computer and {{HUG}} you !!
Thinking of you and saying a special prayer for you and Cliff.
Caroline

That corgi :) said...

I'm so sorry again for your loss; I can't imagine how hard it is; she will always be your first child and will always be a part of
your life; keeping you in my prayers

betty

Trennia said...

(((HUGS)))

Lori said...

Missing her with you friend!!! xoxo

Em said...

It just isn't fair. Why does time have to go on? I am so sorry! {{{hugs}}}

The Blue Sparrow said...

Remembering your sweet Lillian with you today. (((HUGS)))

elena said...

Thinking of you today and your hubby. *hug*

love and prayers
elena

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