Wednesday, March 31, 2010

The one liner.

Yup. Took the test last night. Hence the "one line", it was negative. I know they said wait until Friday, but what's the point in waiting that long and letting my hopes get up, just to be crushed? I just knew in my heart that it was going to be negative. But it still killed me. Please pray for me, I really need it right now.
Last night, I sat in bed and cried and cried. Not really because I'm not pregnant... but because I don't know what's going on with my body. And I want to know.
I feel as if, if I can get things going with my cycles, that everything else will work itself out, ya know? I mean...I know that it probably won't be like that... but this is just annoying. =(
I am trying my very best to keep my chin up and fully rely on God... but that's hard sometimes. I want this so bad...too bad maybe. I KNOW with everything within me that things will happen in God's time, and if they DON'T happen at all... I will have to deal with that and praise God anyways! It's just so hard.
So I ask that today you pray for me in this way. Pray that God will give Dr.G the wisdom to understand my body (ha! good luck!), and that Dr.G may give me the medications that will work for me. Pray (again) that God will allow Clif and I to grow our family, in His time...and pray that His time is quickly. And pray that He will give Clif and I the understanding that we need during this time. That He will prepare our hearts for the joy and possibly disappointment that we may have ahead of us. And more importantly, that Clif and I will be able to continually praise Him through our storm.


belle said...

prayers heading to the throne room.


Lori said...

Oh friend, I'm sorry it was negative. just may not have a high enough HCG level to register yet, so if they told you Friday, you still may come up with a positive.

Regardless, I have been and will continue to pray for you and your you miss your sweet baby girl and continue the heartache that so many take for granted in trying to continue building your family.
Much love and many prayers!!!

Em said...

I'm so sorry. I hope you get some answers soon. Good luck! {{{hugs}}}

croleyc69 said...

Praying for you always and relax and let go and if another baby is in your plan from God it will happen. They always told me I would never have a child and when I was 35 I had my first and he was unexpected.

Holly said...

It really sucks to get those neg test! I'm sorry!! Such a big disappointment each time.

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