Thursday, April 1, 2010

April is here...am I a fool?

Ha! I don't think so. =) I have to share this with you guys, just because it was an awesome thing. So yesterday I was really beginning to get worried about my cycles. You see, the longer I go, the more cysts that form on my ovaries, which means more medication (and longer), and in the long run... it means longer until I can become pregnant again. So needless to say, I was really really worried.
I prayed all the way to work. No talking on the phone, no radio...no nothing. =) Just talked to God, out loud...driving down the road. I'm sure people that saw me thought I was off my rocker! But anyways...on the way to work, I decided that I was going to fast for 8 hours and just pray about my situation. I can't tell you how many prayers that were sent up yesterday. I begged and pleaded with God that if it was His will, that he might just make my body do what it needs to do.
I got depressed, and in a funk last night... I guess all the hormones and such. And I just wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. But I kept pressing on, and kept on praying...and trusting.
Clif worked late, and didn't get home until almost eleven o'clock...and when we finally got in bed, I asked him to pray with me about the situation some more. We praised God, and we asked of God.
I woke up this morning praying about it. I prayed while I got ready, and I prayed all the way to work. Not that I would get pregnant, but that my body would just do what it needs to do to get one step closer to having another baby.
I was still kinda in my funk...I didn't feel well, I just wanted to go home and go back to bed. =) And then...I STARTED! I know, I know...TMI...but I was just really amazed.
I had never fasted before...not like that anyways, and I just. I don't know. I am just overwhelmed by the love of my God.
So no, I am not a fool. =) Not in this aspect anyways.

6 comments:

Raquel said...

That is awesome news Des!!! I'm so happy for you!

Trennia said...

YeAh!!!

Lori said...

So glad for you! I know the feeling of just wanting to know that things will be able to be somewhat normal (within your body)...

belle said...

that is wonderful!!! fasting is such a great way to get rid of the distractions in our lives so we can focus on deep prayer.... i'm so glad that God has answered your prayers.

Leslie said...

I pray all the time on my way to work, so no, you didn't look crazy. People probably just thought you were singing along to the radio.

In your Wed. post you said, "I feel if I can get things going with my cycles, that everything else will work itself out....I mean...I know that it probably won't be like that..." It sounds to me as if God is working it out just like that!! OUR GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!

Funny....the word verification for my comment is "ables". Yes, He is able!!!

Hugs & Blessings, Leslie

Holly said...

That's great!!!

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