Thursday, June 10, 2010

to my daughter...



Sweet Girl,
I cannot express how much I miss you...today especially. I picked flowers for you, Tiger Lilies. Fitting, huh? I was driving down our road and saw them, so I pulled over and picked some.
Today was "okay"...until I got home. :( Daddy is out tonight, and I am home alone. All alone.
I walked by your room, as I often do. The difference is, tonight I went in. I just wanted to peek in and see everything. The sight, the smell... it was overwhelming. I let it overtake me. And I lost it.
You were my world for almost ten months, and after almost seven months I am still trying to learn how to deal with it.
People tell me I should be over it by now. I should be over you by now. But I'm not, and I don't think I'll ever be. No one can make me forget the print you left on my heart, and no one ever will.
I love you baby girl, with all of my heart. Forever. I'll never stop telling people about you, and I'll never stop telling your story. You're an amazing little girl.
Love,
Mommy

6 comments:

Holly said...

I like that you picked her flowers. They are pretty!

People don't know squat. I don't believe we ever get over it-just learn how to live with it.

Jennifer said...

Honey, I am here to tell you that if anyone expects you to EVER be over loosing a child then they are clueless. That kind of grief is forever. I believe the grief changes and is not as "intense" the more time that passes but... You will never forget or "get over" it. My brother has been gone for 22 years and we still cry and grieve. You love that sweet Lilly with everything you are and don't worry about what others think. Hugs!!

Allyson Shockley said...

:'( I love you so much Des... I'm praying for you...

That corgi :) said...

hugs to you! no, no one should ever tell you you should be over it be now. You take all the time you need to grief; no matter what anyone says. Lots of dreams were shattered that day in November. I can't imagine how hard it is and how much you miss her, but I know it is something that no "set" amount of time could possibly heal.

betty

croleyc69 said...

{{HUGS}}

Caroline

elena said...

I love the Tiger Lilies they're gorgeous!

I don't know why people are in a rush for us to get over and move on from losing our children. We will never move on and they shouldn't expect us to.

I have this saying on Lilly's photo album on my facebook it says "Some say you are too painful to remember, I say you are too precious to forget"

Same with you Lilly she is too precious to forget.

Many hugs your way
elena

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