Monday, June 21, 2010

a childless fathers day...

Yesterday hurt.
A lot more than I thought it would.
I literally ached for Clif all day long yesterday. It killed me to see him hurting so much, and knowing that there was absolutely nothing I could do about it.
This Father's Day was nothing like we expected. She was supposed to be here, he was supposed to have her with him. Show her off. She was supposed to meet her great grandfather this weekend. But she didn't. And according to God's plans... she wasn't supposed to be here. He needed her more.
I won't go into details. I'm sure that all of you know how men don't like their emotions to be talked about. So I won't talk about Clif's emotions from yesterday. But I do ask you to pray for him, a lot. It was a lot worse that I thought it would be...for us both.
Praying faithfully to have full arms and hearts this time next year...

7 comments:

Lucid Anne said...

I know. :( I felt that way too. It was a horrible day. I will be praying for all of us. <3

croleyc69 said...

I'm praying for both of you. I pray that next year you will be holding a new life.

{{HUGS}}
Caroline

Trennia said...

(((HUGS)))

elena said...

Many hugs. I have tears in my eyes as I read your post. I ached for Jim yesterday as this was his first Father's Day without Lilly as well. So I can imagine the pain you feel for your husband, and the pain he felt as well. I am so sorry that Father's Day was a difficult day. I'm glad that Clif has you to lean on and be there for him. I will continue to pray for you. I have a prayer page on Lilly's blog if you would like I would love to add you to the prayer list. Of course my prayers will continue for you either way.

many hugs
elena

Lori said...

Oh, it's so much harder to watch our husbands suffer, isn't it??? Our pain we feel like we can handle...but to see our sweet men just so broken really hurts.

Praying faithfully for you both in the coming year as well.

xoxo

That corgi :) said...

I'm so sorry it was tough for you both; I pray God will answer our prayers for a beautiful baby in both of your arms next year

betty

Holly said...

Praying for you both

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