Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I'm back...and boy do I have a lot to talk about!!! :)

As I am sure most of you have noticed, I have been missing in action for quite sometime now. :) I feel loved though. Even though I've been gone, I have continued to receive comments, page views, AND new followers. How cool.


I told you all in my last post, brb :) that I would be MIA for a while, that I didn't know when I would be back, but that I WOULD be back. I also said not to worry, that nothing was really "wrong". Well... I'm back now! And I'm here to tell you why I left in the first place.


As you all know, Clif and I had our first IUI procedure done on December 23rd. Of course we told ourselves (and one another) that we would not get our hopes up. And of course, we did. I'm really bad about doing that. In fact, you all know that for the last *almost* year... every time I go to the doctor, whether it be Dr G or Dr S, I always get my hopes up. And I always crash when disappointment hits. *sigh* Such is the story of my life. But you gals (and possible gents?) have been great. Comforting me along, when times of disappointment arise. It's been a really rough past year+. We've had so many ups and downs, it's not even close to being funny.

**Yes, I really had Clif take a picture of this!**


I still believe that God has a very special plan for our lives, and I am anxiously awaiting for that plan to unfold - and be revealed to Clif and me. We are fully trusting in Him, and know that our desires will be fulfilled in His timing.


So the week of the 1st, I started experiencing some cramps. They weren't horrible, but I knew that AF was right around the corner. You see, the month before I got pregnant with Lilly, I ovulated. But I didn't get pregnant. It was disheartening to say the least. But that next month, the month that I did get pregnant, AF started on it's own. I didn't have to take Provera. So even though I was very disappointed the first week of this month, I held tight to the hope of next month being the month for us. If AF was going to start on her own, maybe eggs would mature on their own too!



Tuesday, January 4th was day 28 of my cycle. We had planned on testing on Thursday the 6th. I was terrified to test too early, again, because of the disappointment that would come along with a negative pregnancy test.



This is where I have to get honest. I "felt" like I was pregnant since New Year's Eve. Deep down in my gut, I just had the feeling.



Clif worked on the 4th, day 28 of my cycle. So after work, I went to Wal*Mart, picked up a box of three pregnancy tests...and went home. I battled with myself the whole ride home. Would I test, would I wait. Clif actually called me during my drive, and asked if I would test when he got home the next morning. That was one day sooner than what we had talked about. I agreed, and that was that.



When I arrived at the house, I decided that I was going to test. I unwrapped the test as I drove up our driveway (I really had to pee!!), and ran inside to take the test. I was praying the whole time, please Lord, just let my gut feeling be right. After a few seconds....I opened my eyes. Disappointment??



I think not. There, alone in my bathroom, on January 4th... two lines appeared on my First Response pregnancy test. I was in absolute shock. I was pregnant. I am pregnant! :)







No, you don't need to adjust your eyes, or your computer screen. You read right! Clif and I are expecting our second bundle of joy sometime around September 15th,2011.



As soon as it sunk in, I headed back to town. I printed out pictures of the positive test, and bought Clif a pair of white, unisex baby shoes. Oh, and a sign for the car window. It's a monkey sitting on a banana and it says "baby inside". I thought it was fitting.



Clif was working night shift, so I wouldn't see him until the following morning. :) I woke up bright and early the next morning, took a shower, got ready for work...and waited. Finally, after what seemed like an eternity...he walked in. He gave me a puzzled look, and I said "don't be mad". He asked why. I told him that there was something that I wanted to give him for Christmas, but wasn't able to. But I wanted to give it to him now. I pulled out a wrapped box from under the covers. It was wrapped in left over Christmas paper, which helped since I told him it was a belated Christmas gift. :)



When he opened it, he just stared. And then it hit him. He couldn't say a word - all he could do was hug me.



So, it took a lot of typing for me to finally get to this point, but we are expecting another little Smith! :) Please pray with us that this pregnancy would be a smooth one for me, and that God would protect me, and more importantly, the....BABIES? Yup that's right...God has given us a double blessing. TWINS!!! Meet "Baby A" and "Baby B". :)

~Baby Smith A~


~Baby Smith B~


I called the doctor that morning, the 5th, and they sent an order in for labs. They of course, wanted to check my hcg levels. :) They called me back within a few hours to let me know that I was at 355, which was normal. Dr S wanted me to come back on the following Monday, the 10th, for more blood work. This is routine for all patients. So, I went back on the 10th (five days later) and my hcg levels jumped up to 2,709!! Needless to say - I was more than excited. I thought for sure that he would see me that same week for my first ultrasound, but he made me wait until Wednesday, January 19th. Talk about an eternity!



As far as feelings go... I felt pretty good last week, but around Thursday things took a turn for the worse :) Which I would take every single day, for the rest of my life. Puking has not yet begun, but I think if it did... I would feel a lot better! Oh, and I feel like every five seconds I am headed to the bathroom. I had a lot of bathroom visits while pregnant with Lilly, but this time, it's like, I can look at water and have to pee. :)


Today, we went to the doctor. Everything looks great, according to Dr S! We are so thankful!!! He said that if we had gone two days earlier, he wouldn't even have been able to see the babies. Just the sacks. So heartrate of Baby A was 96 and Baby B is 94!! Which, is on the lower side, but he said that it's completely normal...especially with me still being so early on! We go back next Friday at 10:00am for another ultrasound, to make sure that babies are growing like they should - and then Dr S is shipping me back off to Dr G! I cannot even begin to express how excited we are. And how very grateful we are, to God.


Now, having said all of that... I must say. We know that these children do not belong to us. This precious blessing is from God, and no other.I want to say up front that we, Clif and I, will not be taking this special gift for granted. We have prayed for what seems like forever for another child. Another chance to be parents. God has graciously answered our prayers, and no matter what happens in the coming months, we will forever praise Him for what He has given us.These children are not ours...they belongs to the Lord. We are vowing to one another and more importantly to God, that we will bring these children up in the Lord. From an early age, these little bundle of joy's will know Who their creator is.

31 comments:

Courtney said...

I am sitting here in happy tears as I read this. I am so flipping excited for you my friend, Lilly is a big sister and I know she is watching over all of you as she always does <3

Caroline said...

I'm so happy and crying the biggest Happy Tears in the world. I have missed you and just yesterday I was really wondering how things have been. I'm so excited and will be holding you all closer to my heart. Yay for Double Rainbows !!!!!
{{{HUGS}}} Love you my friend !!!

Dana said...

I am so happy for you! I'm in tears! I was hoping that you would say you were pregnant as I read along. I didn't expect twins! Amazing! Did I mention that I am happy for you!!!!!

bnpatgentry said...

I was so excited when Josh told me today!! I am so happy for you both...I just knew when you said brb that, that must have been why you had done so....Congrats to you both...if you ever need advice on with to do with 2 little babies at the same time just ask me lol...mine are not twins but they are so close it seems like it!! We will continue to pray for you and Clif and these wonderfull Gifts from God!! <3 Love y'all <3

Taylor said...

OH MY GOSH YESS!!! Not to brag but I've been prayin for awhile that this would be it and that God would bless you with many babies and hes answering prayer Oh I'm so happy for the both of you God is so good he makes every trial worth it in the end and whatever he takes away he restores all the more. I'll keep praying for a healthy happy pregnancy and delivery for you, and congradulations!

Sarita Boyette said...

What a miracle! Many congratulations! I will be praying for a trouble free pregnancy. You and your husband must be ecstatic! Two of my Rainbows are my twin daughters. They are grown now, but we have enjoyed them so much!

Trennia said...

Smiling big sitting hear reading!
My hubby told be a couple of weeks ago he thought you would get a postive!
We pray for you and Cliff everyday when we eat breakfast,lunch,dinner...I know that might sound kinda weird but that is when my hubby,and kids and of course me are gathered together and we lift you both up in our prayers as we do many others at that time!..It helps our kids to understand to pray for others before recieving the blessing of food God allowed us to have! I'm so happy for you, what a double blessing! Congratulations!

Allyson Shockley said...

Des!!!!! Words cannot express the joy I feel for you and Clif tonight as I read this! I had a pretty good feeling everyone's prayers would be answered this month but this is just amazing to me! I love you so much and I'm so so happy for you guys! :) <3

Ourboys2010 said...

This is truly awesome! Praise the Lord. Such a wonderful gift that he has given to you both! I feel the exact same way that you do. These precious babies belong to the Lord as we all do, and are just on lone to us. Having a baby is a miracle. The Lord is truly wonderful and the only one that can breath life. Congrats to you both! I will be praying for your continued successful pregnancy.

Jessica said...

Holy crap on a cracker I am SO happy for you! That is AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME! Can't wait to see more ultrasound pictures and hear more lovely news! You are in my prayers momma! <3 What precious precious GIFTS from God! <3 (((hugs)))

That corgi :) said...

I'm not blogging these days since Im moving, but I have been praying for you and Cliff and I am SOOOOOOO THANKFUL to Jesus for this fantastic news!! Jesus is in control and we will just trust in him over these next months of your pregnancy. We know his plans are always the best ones and his timing always the best! So very happy for you and Cliff, what a wonderful blessing!

betty

Mrs*Popcorn said...

Yay!! God has answered a lot of prayers with this news! My hubby and I will definately keep em coming your way! Lol MY hubby is excited for you :)

JenJen said...

I have goosebumps! How exciting to be pregnant and with twins!!!!

Congrats!

Sarah said...

i can not even express how happy i am for all of you! wow twins what a blessing...i cant help but let the tears of joy fall and praise our gracious God. Ill continue to pray for you and the babies and cliff

mommy4boys said...

Over the top thrilled for you guys!!!!!

Danae said...

Congrats Desiree!! I'm so excited for you and Clif! Here's to a happy, healthy, and uneventful next 9 months!

Jodi said...

Such great news!!! Sooo very happy for you!!

Tiffany said...

congrats congrats congrats! so very happy for your wonderful news! praying for you every step of the way...

AHB said...

Tears of joy are running down my face..I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am to hear this news and twins!! I am going to pray that you have a very healthy pregnancy and are able to bring both of those beautiful babies into your home! Congratulations!! This just made my day!!

Laura said...

Congratulations! Two miracles from a gracious God!

mrslinares said...

Congrats, I'm so happy for you and Clif. I' was crying the whole time while i read your post. i been in your shoes before fighting infertility. Lots of prayers for you and the babies.

Betty said...

I cannot even begin to tell you the last time I cried happy tears like this! I am so so so so so so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know we have all been praying for you since your "hiatus" and I just had this feeling that THIS month was THE month. I'm like you though, I always get my hopes up. And there are two!!! OMG you are having TWINS!!! Talk about a double blessing!

I will continue to pray that you have a good pregnancy...not for you, but for those precious little ones you are carrying. The next few months will be nuts, but you can do it!

Again, I am so incredibly happy for you! Please continue to keep us all updated. You have a great support group of friends on here!

belle said...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to God be the glory and to your womb and children, His special touch and continued blessing!!!!! He answers prayers, i simply cannot do or say anything except to sing His praises and wish you the very best of His most precious gifts:) wow! i wish i could give you the biggest giantest hug right now!!!!!!! :)

praying so hard everyday for you and cliff and the babies:))))))

Jamie Wilson said...

YAY!! CONGRATS!!!! We are all thrilled for you!!! :)

Lauren said...

sooo happy for you! God bless!

Shannon said...

so so thrilled. how gracious God is!!

Stephanie said...

HOW WONDERFUL! I am crying at your amazing news!

Hannah Rose said...

Oh Desiree!! I can't stop crying tears of joy for you!! I am almost speechless *almost* lol. You and Clif are an amazing young couple and the fact that you have praised the Lord through all of this is so beautiful. I am SOOOO HAPPY AND EXCITED THAT YOU ARE HAVING TWINS! Wow wow wow!! Praise be to God!!! =)

SaraBear, Sarba, Sari, Satellite, Geeky, Sapphire, Sapphy, Sapphi, Spork, Dish said...

Desiree,
This is Sara W. I just wanted you to know how happy I am for you. I was at work and Ben came by and told me you were pregnant with twins and I literally jumped up and down (that is really hard to do with sciatica) and shed a few tears of joy!
I have been keeping up with your blog since you shared it with me last year and I have been praying very hard for you and Clif.

This might sound crazy but it happens pretty often throughout my life... I had a dream about you back in December. (I remember this vividly and recorded it in my journal) I was at the duck pond in Salem just walking around and I ran into you. You had a baby bump! We talked a few minutes and I left. Then much later in the dream after many other events (I am guessing this was supposed to be years later) I was in Wal-Mart in Salem (sometimes I have a lot of dreams in places I frequent) and again I run into you in the women's clothing. As we were talking two children no older than 5 years old ran past and they were playing what looked like tag around the clothing racks. I was like "Wow are these yours?" and you said yes with a big proud smile on your face.
I am leaving out if they were boy or girl on purpose just in case I am right on that and I don't want to spoil anything. I hope I didn't freak you out too bad. lol.
I just want you to know I care for you and I couldn't be happier!

Email me anytime. I'd love to hear from you! Sara.draws@gmail.com

~W~ said...

Love it!!!! This post reminds me of a sermon that I am going to have to write about. I'm so happy for you and your hubby. Uplifting you in prayer that all goes well.

Holly said...

I am very, very happy for you! I have tears of happiness! :) I will be praying for you on this journey with your twins!

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