a little bit of this and that...

I have a million thoughts running through my head, and as hard as I try... I just cannot get them out onto the screen. Well, we'll just say that I can't get them out AND them make sense.
Bleh. It's been a busy week, and I can't believe that it's almost over! We hired a new employee at our office, and I have been training all week. :) It's gone well, not as stressful as I thought it might be. I think the chickie is going to catch on really quick. Thank you Lord!
I got a call from my doctors office. Since my nurse retired on the 14th, Dr G does not have a new nurse yet. So the lady from the lab called me to inform me that, once again, my progesterone test is not consistent with ovulation. :( Dr G has already called in my clomid 150mg, AND my provera. Thanks for having confidence in my body, Doc.
I'm really praying that this round of Clomid will do the trick. I really don't want to have to meet this fertility specialist that Dr G told me about. :) I am just keeping my chin up, and bathing it in prayer. I know that God will bless us in His time...whether it be with a child or not.
Something crossed my mind today. I know I'm not the first to think of it, and I'm sure that I've heard people say it before.
But for some reason today, I was thinking about God sending His son to die on the cross. I got to this thought because I was thinking about how a lot of people don't know what I am going through...they don't know the loss of a child, and they expect me to get over it and move on with my life.
God knows exactly what I am feeling...and then some. He sent His Son into this world as an infant, already knowing that He would later be beaten, and then die on a cross for the sins of the world.
God's Son died. My daughter died. Not only does God care for me, and care about what I am going through....He understands it first hand. What a comforting feeling.
I don't know...maybe that sounds weird. But it just hit me today, that though I already knew I was not alone...it just brought that much more comfort.
**sigh** Doctors bills are still up in the air, but we aren't going to worry about it just yet. If it costs us three hundred dollars a month in order to get pregnant, it's a small price to pay. After all, it's just money...right?
:) It'll get paid somehow, we have faith.
So I got Clif a new wedding band for our Anniversary. It's stainless steel (very pretty) and is inscribed on the inside with "Jeremiah 29:11". Love it! And so did he.
He bought me a pretty little picture frame from Hallmark :) My "real" gift is a weekend away. Not really sure where we are going, he mentioned something about going towards Virginia Beach. We shall see... I am hoping that it has something to do with a Cheesecake Factory, because that's where I've really been wanting to go. Anyways, we are going out of town for a night...staying in a hotel somewhere...and he is taking me on a "mini" shopping spree. :) What more could I ask for, huh?
Most of my pre pregnancy clothes are too small, and all of my post pregnancy are too big. So my wardrobe is limited. Needless to say, I am looking forward to it!!!
Sorry this is so jumbled, but it's been a while since I wrote anything, and just wanted to check in and let everyone know what's going on.
Hope everyone has a great week!!!