who would have thought...

forever could be severed by...

                         the sharp knife...

                                             of a short life....



So out of the blue these lyrics popped into my head. It's a song that I've shared here before. It's called "If I die Young" by The Band Perry.
The first words that really caught me were...

"Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life aint always what you think it ought to be, no
Aint even gray but she buries her baby..."

Rain and rainbows have really been big for me since losing Lilly. Rain symbolizing the "storms" that we have endured during our life, mostly this past year. And rainbows symbolizing things that have yet to come.

Anyway...back to my main reason for writing this post. The words, who would have thought forever could be severed by the sharp knife of a short life. Talk about hitting home.

I haven't been in her room for a while... it seems that it gets harder and harder every time I think about it. But tonight I opened her door, turned on her light, and quietly hummed/sang those words to her.

I can't help but think about what those words mean to me. I mean, seriously... who would have thought? I never tought that my future would include grieving daily for my baby girl. I never would have dreamed that her life would be cut short. That she'd never breath a breath this side of Heaven. Would would have thought?

Hmmm...I've got a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head :) Should keep me busy for a while. Oh, how I hate night shift...gives me way too much time to myself! :) Night all!