...journey to motherhood

Today wasn't horrible, but I definitely glad that it's over. I woke up late this morning, so I was rushing around to get ready for church. I asked Clif to get my medication out of my purse, and he told me that he couldn't find it. :) I went to get it, and inside I found a Mother's Day card (too sweet) and a bracelet. It's similar to a Pandora bracelet, but it's different. It's actually the one that I had said that I liked, I saw it at the jewelers that we always deal with. Anywho... he bought me three beads to get it started. One with Lilly's birthstone, one that says "daughter" and a little dangly one with an "L". I absolutely love it. After he took me out for lunch, we went back to the mall and he bought me eight more beads. :) He's the best.
Church this morning was tough. Real tough. I was "okay" this morning at home, teared up when Clif gave me my gift...but I made it through. But as soon as I walked into church and saw everyone that loved and cared about me, I struggled to hold it together. Then, we always have all the mothers go up front, and then everyone in the congregation can stand up and say something about the mothers. I didn't want to go up, but my friend Aleisha told me that if I didn't get up there that she would kick my butt. So I did. :) It was hard, I kept my head down...trying not to cry. Then my husband (did I mention he was the best) got up and said something about me, and how he was thankful that though Lilly wasn't here long, that God allowed me to be her mother. And of course my parents had something to say about everything. Everyone in the church was SO supportive. I love my church family so very much. They're all praying for me, and praying that I will get pregnant soon...and they are also praying for TWINS. haha...all of them.
I did sob at some points, but all in all it was on "okay" day. I am mentally,
emotionally, and physically exhausted. But I have made it through. :) Now I am going to lay in bed and watch TV with my honey...and go to sleep.
We did go to the zoo yesterday, I'll have to post on that soon. It was a busy day today, and is going to be a crazy day tomorrow!
To my babyloss mommy friends, I hope that each and every one of you had a peaceful day full of hope and love. God bless each and every one of you. Never give up hope, God has a plan for us all.